do you know who I am

So the last couple of days have been pretty awesome. Andy finally started playing Fire Emblem 9 again, starting over from the beginning because his characters weren't the greatest. I'm also in the process of replaying number 10, so it's been non stop Fire Emblem, which I am perfectly fine with. I'm at the part in 10 where Andy's not allowed to look at the screen anymore while I'm playing cause there's spoilers on practically every line.

Basically it's been me watching him playing FE9 and us having fun together.

However this morning I got up at 4 because I was in too much pain to consider sleeping, accidentally woke Andy up when I left the room and then HE couldn't get back to sleep, so I feel guilty about that. He hasn't been sleeping that great lately, and there's not really anything I can do, which makes me feel helpless, which I HATE.

I was also going to do laundry today, but I can't until Andy gets back from class to lend me money. T_T I thought the machine too credit cards, but nope, only bills, of which I have five ones.

Oh well, I'm gonna curl up with my heating pad and play FE10, methinks.

So somehow by clicking on a link to a site I trust I got a bunch of trojans on my laptop. My virus scan fixed a most of them or quarantined them, but I keep getting redirected to sites I didn't ask for so something is still wrong. Sigh.

Andy's got a friend over playing Smash Bros. They're both so much better than me I don't really want to play either of them one on one (I can get Andy down to one life a lot of the time, but I still don't win that often, and I've never played the other guy) and three person matches aren't very fun. It always ends up as two people playing, and then the other one poking at them from the side.

So here I am in the corner of the room in the semi-comfortable chair with my laptop. There's really no point to this post, just that I'm bored, just so you know.

So I think I've got the bill paying thing down. Possibly. Andy's mom is going to pay the main rent part online every month, and Andy'll pay the utilities via check. Then I'll write a check for my half of all that and get it to Andy's mom somehow. There were so many plans going around at one point that I was really confused as to what we were actually doing. But as I said, I think I've got it down.

I wish his mom liked me more, she thinks I'm an idiot, and treats me as such.

Yesterday was fun, overall. First major get together of the year, but there has to be another one with the rest of the group gets here. I had to leave early cause I had cramps and a headache and kind of just wanted to curl up in a ball and sleep until Sunday when Andy gets here.

I really miss him. It's not like we haven't gone this long without seeing each other before, and I did enjoy having the apartment to myself for a while but still. I want him home now.

Well I've been in the new apartment for a little over a week now, and I still love it. The more time I spend here the more I notice what's wrong with it and it's only enforced that this is an old building.

The windows are thin and the people next to me always have their fan on so that's distracting to fall asleep to. The bath leaks from the shower head if you turn both the hot and cold water on at the same time, though thankfully only for about 15 seconds. And after you turn the water off it still runs for about a minute until it tapers off.

But I still love it. This feels more like MY apartment than last year's did, possibly because last year it was me and a friend, this time it's me and my boyfriend. Also the location is fantastic; right off the Park Blocks. Not even OFF the Park Blocks, ON them.

In a random change of subject I finished Hotel Dusk: Room 215 today. While I enjoyed the game immensely and it was full of good plot and characters I was really disappointed with the ending. (SPOILERS AHEAD) Nothing was resolved! You got the answers to a bunch of questions and the story behind the events of the game and the past were explained, but of the five people missing none were actually found, you just found WHY they were missing.

It's been two years since the game came out, and I really hope they do make a sequel eventually because so much was left hanging. I liked the character of Jeff Angel until he practically disappeared from the game, having nothing to do with the main plot. When he showed up to say goodbye to Kyle before he left I was like "Oh yeah, you exist."

All in all a good game, PLEASE let there be a sequel.

Well, Andy and I moved into our apartment Saturday. It's been amazing so far. We just got internet set up today, and sadly we both agree that it feels more like an actual home now. >.< So of course once we finally get set up the hot water starts having issues. The cold water is working fine, but when you turn the faucet to hot it just splutters at you. I think the whole building is having issues, because the maintenance guy (Andre, I think is his name) was supposed to come by around 11 and fix our windows (two of them won't shut) showed up in the hall around 2:30 and was like "I'm really really busy, do you mind if I come back tomorrow?" which was fine.

Andy has to go back to Olympia on Friday, because his mom wants to spend more time with him (read: wants to make him do more yard work). I'm staying here, though, so people should totally visit me!

It might not be the best apartment, but I really like it and so does Andy. ^_^

Andy and I officially have an apartment together! Yay!

We signed papers today (he was only in town for the day, unfortunately) and can take possession as soon as August 1st, though neither of us want it that early. Which is okay, since the first month is free.

I wasn't actually expecting to sign papers today; it was originally supposed to be just his family was coming down to look at the ones we liked from our search. I think that was one of the reasons my mom was so stressed when I called her to tell her we were signing papers today. Also as I found out later she thought the price I gave her was my half of the rent, when in fact it was the whole amount. But it was a very frustrating phone call. Several phone calls, in fact, none of them particularly pleasant.

She agreed in the end, though, so I now have an apartment with Andy. :D

I have changed since high school. My sense of humor has changed, and my personality has changed. I have never fit in very well with you all, and I don't think I ever will. But you're all my friends, and that's why I keep coming back to you guys, even if you rarely invite me to anything and make me feel left out when I'm there. I've said something about this before; asked to be invited more. Since this never happens, I feel like some of you never even liked me to begin with, or you just forget about me, which I'm not sure is any better.

It really bothers me when people judge me on who I was, not who I am. Yes, I've made mistakes, but who hasn't? It's not fair to judge me on those mistakes, when that's not the person I am anymore.

This isn't directed towards anyone in particular, it's just something that's been building up for a while. I apologize for having to say this, but I needed to say it somewhere.

Aaah, I hope I didn't get him into trouble!

I got a PS2 for my birthday, so I've been going to Gamestop looking for games that I might want. I always talk to the people behind counters because I like people, and none of them seem to mind. Me and this guy (who I think used to work at the Starbucks next door, cause I recognized him) were talking and he told me that the next day (today) they were having a buy two get one free sale. Most of the games I want are in the bargain bin, meaning that I can get three games for 10-15 dollars, which I think is a great deal.

So I go there this morning, and I must have misheard the guy, because the sale starts at 7pm, not 7am. So when I asked the guy at the counter he was like, "Who told you that, do you remember their name?" Good think I can honestly say I didn't know. Apparently it's supposed to be confidential.

I wish he'd told me I wasn't supposed to know, I wouldn't have said anything. It didn't seem like a secret when he told me, so I didn't think anything of it.

I really hope he doesn't get in trouble! :-(

Well that was fun. I was under the impression we were each doing our part of the slide show and then just combining them when we met up today. So I got to sit around because mine were done while my group wrote their slides. Then because I type the fastest, I got to type the bibliography, which I hate doing.

Oh, well. Just the one more presentation and I'm done!

I'm so fucking sick of all our arguments being over instant message. When I fight I want to be able to yell and flail my hands, and I can't do that when I'm typing.

And Goddammit I hate it when I can see both sides of the argument. Sort of.

I'm rewatching Dark Angel season two because I've decided to read the books that pick up where the series left off, and noticed something that's always bothered me.

In the first episode of season two, when Max and Alec are fighting in Logan's apartment, and again when he is making money by beating up people in the rink, if memory serves, it doesn't make any sense that Max wins. Yeah, she was trained by Manticore, but she left when she was NINE. Alec's been training with them his whole life, and he should have been able to easily overpower her.

The only thing I can think of is that she picked up street fighting when she was out in the real world, but I still think he should have won.

It kind of really bothers me that everyone and their dog is calling Castiel 'Cas'. His full name is so beautiful, I don't know why people wouldn't want to use it.

Dean calling him Cas was awesome, because it showed their furthering connection. It also amuses me because the only girl Dean ever really dated was named Cassie. XD

But when other people, say Anna, started to call him Cas, it just got annoying. Maybe it was the writers trying to show that she wasn't quite back to full Angelness by shortening his name, but it was just weird. Zachariah always calls him Castiel, and I think he's one of the only people who does.

So there are a lot of things I should be doing other than talking about Heroes on livejournal, say, the project that's due tomorrow, but whatever.

( Spoilers for Heroes, and warning for long and ranty )

Thanks a lot, Monica, I think I've listened to this song about 10 times since you gave me the link. It's just so good!

I think 'meh' is the most annoying thing someone can say in response to anything. The only time it doesn't grate on my nerves is when it follows, "How was your day?" because 'kind of meh' makes sense there.

Grr.

In other news I'm going to see Fall Out Boy in concert tonight. Cobra Starship and Hey Monday and someone else will also be there, so I'm looking forward to it. This is going to be the first time I'm going to a concert alone so Mom is semi-freaking out and wants me to call her when I get home so she knows I'm alright.

Ugh. I really really hate waking up in pain from weird alien-takeover dreams. I don't think I can get back to sleep.

You ever get flashes of something, a series or picture or something, while listening to music? I get flashes of Banjo-Tooie when listening to Black and Blue by the Backstreet Boys.

AND I JUST FIGURED OUT WHY.

I just looked it up: they came out three days apart from each other! I was probably playing the game while listening to the cd for the first few times.

It makes so much sense, I don't know why I didn't think to look it up before now. Or why I didn't remember it in the first place.

Ted from How I Met Your Mother (you were right, Missy, I do like it) looks like a cross between Ted from Queer as Folk, and Chandler from Friends.

Watchmen was amazing. Really really amazing. I knew nothing about it before walking into that theater, but it was amazing. I won't say any more, because I'm sure some of you are going to see it.

PS: My friends had a good laugh at me fangirling My Chemical Romance when they were on screen in the preview thingy. And in the end during the credits.